The BeautyButterfly

I am an idiot.   I must meet someone later today that I have not met before and I have used a new skincare product.   I know that my skin isn’t happy now and thought that this new product would help.   Unfortunately, it hasn’t.   My skin feels itchy and sore I want to scratch my face, but I can’t because I know that will make it worse.   I will post a proper review of the cleanser next week.

Most of my life I have had long hair as I don’t really like going to get my hair cut.   I can’t always justify the cost and I don’t want to waste hubby’s time when he isn’t at work.   I got in the habit of getting my haircut when I tool the boys to get theirs. One night slightly tipsy (I don’t drink anymore) I decided I would do a sponsored head shave.   And I did – I had to wear a wig when I was at work.   I now keep my hair short as I prefer it – it is easy to look after, doesn’t take all night to dry when I leave it to dry naturally.   I don’t have to use a hairdryer that took over an hour and gave me arm ache. Since the head shave the grey has come through I found my first grey when I was 11 years old.   It thick, healthy and dark brown.   I wash and condition it every week using products formulated for normal hair.   That has reduced from daily when it was longer.

Had my eyebrows waxed and tinted today by Ellie at Benefit in Debenhams Bullring.  Had my make-up lesson with a lovely person.  Tried They’re Real eyeliner and mascara in blue. I love it.

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Sorry Abi Cleeve and Caroline Hirons you won’t like the photos attached to this post.   I had a CBA day yesterday (see feeling low post for explanation) I didn’t put on my factor 50+ P20 went out to meet my hubby and got burnt.   Don’t think I will be using it again as it has alcohol denat in it.   I am quite sure it is not good for the skin. Checked my after-sun lotion and that too has alcohol denat in it.   Why? – is it because I bought it from a supermarket what skin benefit does alcohol denat?   None probably. I love the sun just wish we had more of it.   And I remember to use protection every day.   Then I wouldn’t burn and find my clothes uncomfortable to wear the next day.   I did remember to wear my baseball cap which I do every day it is one of my ‘safety blankets’ that I have to enable me to leave the house to meet hubby. I always put sun lotion on small as he has beautiful red hair and freckles which means he burns easily like me.   Large and medium are li

The heading of this post says it all.   I have no mojo.   Everything that I am supposed to do like cleaning my house or face are what my eldest calls CBAs (can’t be a***d).   I am having them more often than I have recently.   It’s horrible feeling like this and anything that I did before to get me out of this funk isn’t working.   At first, I thought it was because having my boys all at home with me.   But it’s not.   I am missing medium and small – the nicknames we have for them though medium is taller than large and small is just small.   Large is due to go back to uni at the weekend and this hopefully will return to ‘normal’ and the other two went back to school on Monday. I have tried walking and listening to music while I walk – doesn’t help.   Bodyblading – doesn’t help.   Reading – doesn’t help.   Watching YouTube videos and the TV – doesn’t help.   I am feeling tired all the time – I think I am sleeping properly. I know that this funk will lift in its own time and it

Alpha-H Liquid Gold with Glycolic Acid As I had previously used Pixi Glow Tonic my skin was used to Glycolic Acid, so I poured the clear liquid onto a cotton pad and slowly wiped it all over my face and neck not forgetting the back of my ears.  Once I had done this, I turned the pad over a repeated the process paying attention to the areas of pigmentation that I was not happy with.  Didn’t follow it with moisturiser as I want it to work as hard as it should.  My skin can cope with no night time moisturiser three nights a week.  I had a slight tingle which was not unpleasant, and my skin did not feel hot to touch or looked flushed.  My skin looks brighter and clearer after every use.  Pigmentation that I was not happy with is slowly getting lighter.  The texture and smoothness of my skin is improving, my fine lines around my mouth are reducing in appearance.  I have noticed that I am using less foundation and it is applying better to day after I have used the product.

This isn’t the first time I have had depression.  I had a bout of it in 2000.  The trigger was that my dad wasn’t here and wasn’t able to meet my husband or first son.  With the support of my hubby I was back to functioning within three months.  My monster on my back is still here after nineteen months and I don’t see a way of getting rid of the huge monster off my back. The trigger this time was a mixture of things – a problem with my back, stomach and eyes along with not feeling happy with my job. I find it a struggle to leave my house on my own – my hubby and three boys need to be with me.   There are certain places such as the doctors and my youngest son’s primary school that I could walk to and from on my own while listening to music.   It took a further three months before I could walk to my hubby’s work to meet him when he finished that was sixteen months ago.   I still can’t leave my house on my own without my music.   I have done it and I will admit I didn’t like it, b

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Before reviewing products, I thought it best to describe my skin before and during my depression at it’s worst so that you will be able to understand my comments regarding the products I have reviewed. I was one of those lucky ones that during my teenage years I didn’t have acne.   Sorry Caroline Hirons (doyen of skincare) I used soap and water – imperial leather to be exact. I was in my twenties before I used skincare ranges such a Decleor, Gatineau, Elemis and Liz Earle. My dad always said I hadn’t washed my neck properly as I had lines around my neck even as a youngster.   I had dark brown hair – I have now embraced my grey, so it is salt and pepper hair.   I have hazel eyes, very pale skin that burns easily and never tans. My cheeks and nose are always red – only when I am poorly do they look pale.   I love my freckles, my dad said that they were a sign of beauty and that I had been kissed by angels.   I must be careful what products I use as my skin is sensitive- my

Before I became poorly my normal make-up, routine consisted of foundation, eyebrows, eye liner and mascara.   Occasionally I would wear eyeshadow. I stopped wearing make-up while I was at my worst with depression- what was the point as I didn’t leave the house unless my hubby and sons were with me.   I used make-up as a mask to make me feel better.   My family knew if it was a good day or a bad day if I was wearing make-up or not. Yes, I still wear make-up to make me feel more confident, I look forward to taking it off at night.   Thanks to a Christmas present last year (Lisa Potter Dixon’s Easy on the Eye book) I am getting my confidence back wearing eyeshadow. As I experiment with different make-up products I will post how I get on with them.

I was born with weak eye muscles and had a squint.   I can remember attending hospital appointments at the Eye Department of Birmingham Children’s Hospital. I didn’t start wearing glasses until I was 17/18 years old as I couldn’t focus my eyes properly looking from paperwork to keyboard.   The optician put a prism in my glasses to counteract the double vision I was experiencing.   He also gave me exercises to do but I always felt sick doing them.   I didn’t mind wearing glasses then as I had wanted to since I was little now I find it a faff as I have distance and reading glasses.   I have on occasion left the house wearing my reading glasses only to return to change them for my distance glasses. During a routine eye test in April 2016, the optician found something wrong with my left eye.   I had to wait eight weeks for a hospital appointment At the appointment I had the pressures in my eyes checked, scans of the back of my eyes taken.   The registrar explains to me that I