About Me

I have never blogged before this first post, so I thought I had better introduce myself and why I am beginning blogging.

I am 42 years old and a mom to three wonderful caring boys (19, 13 and 12) and I have a very understanding loving husband without their support I couldn’t do this.

So, in Spring 2015 I was a teaching assistant in a Junior school – loved that job.  I had to have some time off as while backing display boards on my own I caused my back to spasm.  I was diagnosed with bulges on my spine at the base of my neck, middle of my back and the bottom of my spine.  When I went back I couldn’t do some of the duties I did before because standing for long periods causes my back to spasm.  My health both physical and mental deteriorated

In Spring 2016 (my body must not like Spring) I had a pain in my stomach and I was constantly being sick – no I wasn’t pregnant.  I lost a lot of weight and didn’t like leaving the house in case I was sick.  Tests revealed a hiatus hernia.  A routine eye test revealed I had some thing wrong with the back of my eyes.  I was diagnosed with Macular Dystrophy.  It means that I am slowly losing my central vision, so I won’t be able to read or watch television etc.  This sent me into a tailspin of depression and anxiety.  I could not leave the house on my own because I was scared I would either be sick, or my sight would disappear.  My boys were and are very understanding when I don’t want to leave the house due to my depression and anxiety.

I have found wearing make-up as a form of mask helps give the illusion of feeling normal.  If I am not wearing make-up that it is not a good day.  Luckily fifteen months of taking antidepressants and antacids I am slowly getting there.

So why blog – well I hope to help others I am 42 and have the eyes of 60-year-old.  When I go for checkups I am the youngest one there.  I love make-up and skincare and they are helping me improve my mental health, so I thought I would blog about my struggles and how make-up and skincare are helping me get my confidence back to leave the house on my own.